I actually had a full on teary time today. This is not how I want to spend my gap year, feeling trapped and responsible for other people. I wanted to travel, visit places and do what I wanted. Instead I’m working 10 hours a day and barely even getting to the gym. Fuck, I feel bad just asking for a friday off to go visit my boyfriend. Ryan told me I needed to develop the strength to do bold things, not the strength to suffer. Which is true, but I can’t do the bold things I need to without money. I’m sick of Adelaide, I dread going to work cause’ it’s not what I want to be doing and at the end of the day I’m not living the full life I wanted. But I don’t know how to change it..